31 days of free trial. new year starts in february.

I was really looking forward to watch home sweet loan. I was patiently waiting for it starts streaming on Netflix this Thursday until I forgot that today is Thursday. It's an Indonesian film showing how bad the economy is right now that it is even almost impossible to do savings and afford to own a house. And how most of the time other things come into play then we're willingly let go whatever we have. This film feels close to heart, to each and everyone of us struggling to stay alive but also not afraid to help others. And by others, we mean family, and by family we mean the closest ones we care more than ourselves.

Growing up I never have a lot of money. I'm not coming from a rich family but I'm also not from an economically disadvantage situation either. My parents used to say we're middle class family. It means everything is enough to just surviving one day to the other. Post undergrad working experiences allowed me to experience a lot of things but money was never the main focus. I did have some but it's always not much. Post grad school working experiences sort of feel the same. I always manage to have some but not a lot. I had one chance of changing everything back in two years of grad school but sadly money was still not my main priority. I did do a little savings but then it's gone in a blink of an eye like it was never there.

I'm having high expectations for this year translated into a long to-do list that obviously I'm not gonna share here. I mean writing up resolutions is easy but actually work on them is another story. Well, my blogging goals at least have always been the same. I hope I'll write more. However, the long January just finally comes to an end and this is only the second writing posted here. I'm trying my best though.

My full-time job is a lecturer at a university but it doesn't pay much. Then the more I asked the internet the more I know that it's a shared experience, it's a universal dilemma of a bitter truth reality in this country. Those lecturers work in public universities getting paid by the government but even they still demanding for a better payment. While the rest of the lecturers, with a lot bigger population, including me, working in private universities are being paid less and rarely right on time are the silent majority, forced getting used to with everything going on. I'm a new comer and I'm shocked that this is the reality I'm living with forever now. I'm planning to write more about this thing in a different writing, at least that's the plan. 

Social media detox is on my mind right now. Now that I really think about it, insta has always been an optional. It does make me feel happy and content sometimes. But it's not always the case if I'm really putting things in perspectives. It may or may not contribute to the level of productivity and happiness. I planned to start the detox since January but I failed since the very first day. One thing I'm expecting coming from a less interaction with insta is that the possible increase of me blogging things out. Not to mention the journal I bought in December barely been touched or written down a lot. I know. My bad.