been a year
may hello, it's been a while. and yes, i still very much feel like a piece of shit. this month a year ago she left me. so, should i call it one-year breakup anniversary? what happened for the past year? everything went downhill. nothing matters anymore. everything is meaningless. i could hardly surviving this shitty life. it turns out she meant a lot to me. she put meaning into my meaningless life. she's like the only thing that keeps me going. i know i'm still functioning but for what? nothing makes me happy anymore. she made me the happiest human during our very short time of relationship when we're together then it makes everything else feels like nothing when she's gone. if you're wondering, yes, i am not deleting any pics and vids yet. i know it is bad for my mental health because she is not coming back. but i cannot deleting the very proofs that for once in forever of all my life time i was actually happy. she made my existence mattered. she made me believ...